Wednesday, June 6, 2012

A New Heart

I don't know about you, but there are times when I feel incredibly strong in my testimony of the gospel and other times when I question what I believe in.  The scriptures call these times "trials of faith."  I used to wonder WHY God would give us these times in our lives.  I used to be angry during these times.  It's only been recently that I have decided to embrace these "trials of faith" and learn and grow from them.

A few weeks back, a good friend of mine asked me to watch her three little ones this week because her regular babysitter is on vacation.  I told her I would, thinking that the money would be welcome since I'm not working at all this summer.  But then I started to realize exactly what I had agreed to. 

My only experience with motherhood has been either a miscarried pregnancy or else a foster placement.  Foster care was a severe "trial of faith."  I never want to do it again.  It has nothing to do with the children that we took care of--I will ALWAYS love them.  It has to do with other things that I just typed and then deleted.  I'm trying to be more positive about it. 

Anyway, we'll just say that foster care left me a panic filled, paranoid, wreck of a severely distrusting person.  I never wanted to take care of kids or even think about trying to have them again.  I seriously felt that motherhood was NOT for me.  And on Monday night it hit me that I would have children in my home again.  And I seriously FREAKED OUT.  I felt sick to my stomach, couldn't eat or focus, and wanted to call and cancel.  BUT, I remembered my resolve to embrace things that were difficult with me, said a prayer, and went to bed at nine.  It was the right thing to do.

Friends, these past two days have been two of the best days of my life!  I loved the kids I'm watching before I offered to do this, but now I love them even more!  I have seen what motherhood really can be and it is not as scary as I thought it would be.  Granted, I've only done this for 2 days and I KNOW it gets worse after the "honeymoon" period.  But I have proven to myself that I could stay calm and collected.  The kids still love me.  I adore them!  This has by far been the most amazing "trial of faith" that I have ever gone through!  And all because I put my trust in God.  And He took my hardened heart and showed me that I could have a different heart that would do more good for the world.

Doesn't that story go along PERFECTLY with the scripture at Word Art Wednesday?!  I was amazed when I saw this week's challenge--and I am sooooo amazed at the goodness and greatness of God!

Here's my digital print for today~

AND, a recipe that I came up with for the kiddos--they LOVED them!

Homemade Oreo Cakesters
1 Devil's Food cake mix
2 eggs
1/3 cup oil
1 container marshmallow fluff

Mix the first three ingredients, roll into small balls (about 1 inch in diameter) and bake for 8-10 minutes at 350*. When they come out of the oven, flatten the cookies slightly with a spatula. After the cookies cool completely, add marshmallow fluff to the bottom of one, and add another cookie on top!

Easy peasy, and OH SO YUMMY!!! :)  Sorry there isn't a photo...they were THAT GOOD. ;D

In addition to Word Art Wednesday, I'm linking up to Scripture Sunday @ Each Card Tells a Story, Think on These Things, Titus 2sdays, and Tell Me a Story.  I hope you all have a fabulous rest of your week--feel free to use my digital print for PERSONAL use!


Grace said...

Hello Mynnette!
I enjoyed reading your story of how God is giving you a new heart... in different areas of life, and so glad you are enjoying the kids this week! It's a perfect story that goes along with the Scripture this week at WAW and I love your digital art piece you created! I'm so not great at digital and need to get up to speed on it! Thanks so much for stopping by my blog... because it allowed me to find yours! TFS!

Karen Letchworth said...

Thanks for not only sharing your art, Mynnette, but also that delicious recipe. What a treat that my thighs don't need! Sounds YUMMY!! Thanks for sharing with us in this week's challenge. You're welcome to link up multiple projects if you like (up to 5). I always love seeing your art anyway...LOL. Thanks for sharing from the heart!
karen L
Word Art Wednesday

A Joyful Noise said...

Thank you for sharing your true story at "Tell Me a Story." God is so amazing to come along side us as we face what we consider as the fearful thing. He turns it around and we enjoy the moment. I am sure the children will want to visit Aunt Mynnette again.

Gemiel said...

Mynnette, thank you so much for sharing your personal testimony with us. I always love it when the Word Art Wednesday scripture seems to be hand selected for what we're going through at the moment. Isn't it wonderful that God is good like that!!! I love the vintage look of your digital print, thanks for linking it up to Word Art Wednesday.

craftattack said...

LOvely story Mynette, I wish you lots of strength! Thanks for visiting my blog! Valerie

Jacqueline said...

Hi Mynnette - I found that I could identify a little with your story - motherhood unfortunately didn't come naturally to me and for the last 20 years I have had many trials! But as I look at my children now I can happily say that it has been so worthwhile and that I didn't do such a bad job after all - Jacqueline xx

Wendy said...

So sorry you had a bad experience re: foster care. Glad your confidence has been restored (even if a little).

I love your digital print (a girl after my own heart) and so glad you linked up with Scripture Sunday this week.

Wendy @ ECTaS

bettyl said...

It's good to find that everything has its value. So glad that the babysitting turned out so well for you!

LDH said...

So happy to read how well the time with your little visitors turned out.

The verse you shared is one very special to me. I have a copy of it in the front of my Bible and pray it back to the Lord for a couple of unsaved loved ones in my life. Your digital print is beautiful!

Thank you so much for sharing on Think on These Things!

Kelli Becton said...

oh, enjoy the kiddos - that sounds like great fun - God is good - love the verse!

Wendys Hat said...

You will make a wonderful Mother.

Arnoldo L. Romero, MLA said...

Amen! What a wonderful testimonial about believing and not being afraid (Mark 5:36). Blessings!

Wendy Swenne said...

Wow Mynette, I just got goose bumps by reading your story. Those trial days/periods are so not fun, but they are so necessary in life, to grow and put our faith and trust in our God.
Love to read how you had the 2 best of days with those kids. I'll pray you will grow from this experience. And who knows what God plans in your life ;)

Thanks so much for sharing your story and your digi is so lovely! Thanks so much for your participation.